Drama Queens are Mute

As many of you already know, i lost my voice yesterday. to tell you the truth at first i thought it was pretty cool. it kept going up and down and up and down. one minute it was so low that people in the halls actually mistook me for my brother. imagine their surprise faces when they yelled, "OH Dimitri I didn't see you. Wait up!" and i turn around. the next minute it went up so high that i earned the nickname "mouse girl" in my science class. i have never heard myself like that before. i talked a lot that day, just to hear myself. STUPID IDEA. at dinnertime my brother was saying something ridiculous about me, ( i don't remember what he said, but its not important) and when i opened my mouth to defend myself nothing came out. not even a squeak. 

Baffled i tried again, and again, and again. it was like when you are in a really good dream that you don't want to wake up from but you know you're about to wake up anyway. you try your hardest to stay in the dream but you're suddenly pulled away. you hold your arms out to grab something and everything gets blurry. the voices get distant. everything is clouded. you cant breathe. i felt like i was losing myself. i wanted to control what was happening but i was being pulled away. i was underwater while everyone else was on shore. i tried to swim my way up to the top but with every stroke i fell deeper. i became disconnected. 

Of course being me i started to cry. And thats when i realized i was being a drama queen. 

If i felt so alone just because i lost my voice for the day, how do people feel when they cant speak at all? i know that my voice will come back, i'm nothing compared to the little boy in africa who was forced to become a soldier and has no voice in the matter. or the little girl who was a rape victim but is too afraid to say anything about it. Who am i to be upset by something like this when there are people who have it worse?