We Come to Dream

Today I went over Courtney's house to film the commercial about her. I'm not going to lie, I was freakin scared. Last year I was a newbie, so I knew that I could always fall back on the oldies if I screwed up. We sink or swim together right? But now, I'm the oldie that is supposed to know what I'm doing, and my nerves and insecurity got to me and I felt like I didn't know what I was doing at times. I had to keep reminding myself why I was doing this. It's not because Luke assigned the commercials to be filmed by me. I could have easily said no, I really don't think it will come out well, Can I take the next one? But, I didn't. Why? Because I want to do it. I want to film the commercial and help direct Ellen with hers. I know that I could do it. I know this stuff, and even if it comes out like shit, it can't be that bad and I know that at least I'm learning. Courtney and I work really well together and even if this first try is really bad we will end up with a decent commercial. Today may have been great and it may have been shit, but at least we actually went out and did it. It's really hard to make shit twice. This is starting to sound like a pep talk.