Lost

What a crazy week.

Earlier in the week we improved at the community center. I gained a lot from that. I was nervous about auditioning for the school play, but improv reminded me that I've done this before, that I have all of freshmen year in theater class and last year in STAC to fall back on. I was a bit more reassured, but my nerves did not go away. I haven't been acting all summer, and I really needed to refresh my memory. I needed to remember how to give myself up to a character I've created. I don't think I'll be any less nervous on Monday, but at least now when I walk in and see the director staring at me, I won't view him a species from an alien planet.

We've also been practicing writing synopsis's and log lines. At, first it was difficult to summarize all of your ideas into a small paragraph or line. It was one major problem I had all of last year. For every improv we had to perform we were given little time to organize our ideas. Those who were able to come up with only the major points were able to improv something amazing, but most of the time we would get caught up in details and then have a great beginning with no where to take it. This skill will come in handy when we do out Be Kind Rewind films.

The part of the week that overshadows the the rest would be the spy game.

Wow.

I went to a really dark place, looking back at it I see myself becoming a monster. I've always thought of myself as a pretty honest person, it's scary when you find out that you are wrong. I've created an image for myself and my fellow STACies and that image was shattered. People will do whatever it takes to survive, even if dying only means you're out of the game. I think that everybody, myself included took it way too seriously. I cannot say that I wish we never played though. I think it was an interesting experience. Somebody compared it to Lord of the Flies, while it was not that intense, it did give us a glimpse of what may happen if we were to become stranded on a deserted island. Even if I became a little scared, I thought that it was fun. It was really interesting to read people, and to be able to see somebody when they are vulnerable and sneaky. I can't wait to discuss this in class.